You can take the meds off the girl, but you can't take the girl off the meds.....
Just a brief interlude to mention that I am thoroughly distraught, not to mention disgusted, that I can't seem to function in a normal, everyday, HUMAN capacity without chemical intervention. Sure there are mitigating factors, but now that everything has pretty much passed (for the moment), NOW, now, I get worse. NOW, the depression sneaks back in. NOW. What the hell?
Going to the doc tomorrow. Giving in again. Tired of being tired. Tired of having ZERO energy no matter what I do. Tired of feeling this way. Can't afford counseling, so have to settle for the happy pills. Wondering if maybe I should try something different, as if I haven't tried everything already.
Just a whole litany of things coming to a head that have driven me to distraction yet again. Here's the short list:
Husband had two weeks off for work injury
That's two weeks of me setting aside work time to take care of him.
Daughter got 4th suspension of the year....6 days out of school, 10 days off bus
Daughter got 2nd court appearance
Daughter had meltdown
Daughter got shipped off to juvie for a long weekend.
Daughter now has to go to court appointed counseling
Gave away daughter's pet rabbit because, after 4 years of her not taking care of it, it was time.
(Note: I kept growing increasingly more allergic to said rabbit so I couldn't even hold her without sneezing)
1 Year since the worst day of my life....(I'll get to that in another post....)
Yeah, so that's the short list without all the gories......suffice it to say alot more was involved, said and done.
So much for those happy endings.
Just a brief interlude to mention that I am thoroughly distraught, not to mention disgusted, that I can't seem to function in a normal, everyday, HUMAN capacity without chemical intervention. Sure there are mitigating factors, but now that everything has pretty much passed (for the moment), NOW, now, I get worse. NOW, the depression sneaks back in. NOW. What the hell?
Going to the doc tomorrow. Giving in again. Tired of being tired. Tired of having ZERO energy no matter what I do. Tired of feeling this way. Can't afford counseling, so have to settle for the happy pills. Wondering if maybe I should try something different, as if I haven't tried everything already.
Just a whole litany of things coming to a head that have driven me to distraction yet again. Here's the short list:
Husband had two weeks off for work injury
That's two weeks of me setting aside work time to take care of him.
Daughter got 4th suspension of the year....6 days out of school, 10 days off bus
Daughter got 2nd court appearance
Daughter had meltdown
Daughter got shipped off to juvie for a long weekend.
Daughter now has to go to court appointed counseling
Gave away daughter's pet rabbit because, after 4 years of her not taking care of it, it was time.
(Note: I kept growing increasingly more allergic to said rabbit so I couldn't even hold her without sneezing)
1 Year since the worst day of my life....(I'll get to that in another post....)
Yeah, so that's the short list without all the gories......suffice it to say alot more was involved, said and done.
So much for those happy endings.
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2 comments:
I'm so sorry you are having to face all of these things at once. In times like these, it's hard to even imagine that things will get better - though they will. Just take a breath and move one, small step at a time.
Thanks, Toni. I know, eventually, everything evens out....it's just the getting there part that sucks some times ;)
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